Gain and Loss... Reflective Post on 2014

In just days, we will welcome 2015. Are you preparing your resolution? I'm not. I don't know, I just don't want make any resolution for 2015. I guess, I came to the conclusion that I don't want make any excessive plans ahead. I do have plans, but not a resolution. I learn a lot from 2014.

Looking back at this year, I have to say 2014 is the tough year for me. I got something but at the same time I also experience great loss. I want to take a moment to look back what 2014 has bring to me so far.

What I wrote here in random order, not by specific ranks or divided into good or bad moments. Those moments are:

My Mum passed away
This was the biggest blow of my life. I lost my Mum, died in battle of cancer. It was devastated and until now, I don't think I recover fully. She passed away in sleep. Only 4 days after she was admitted to the hospital with no signs of consciousness, we decided to took her home. When she arrived, she's gone. It's only me and my brother now. Not a single day we're not missing her. We always miss her everyday.

Old and New Love
I have to say, saying goodbye to someone we love is never easy. I have this relationship with someone for quite some time. Yet, I have to call it off for some reason. During my mourning period for my Mum, I found someone. This person accompanied me during my birthday. Comfort me during my sadness for Mum. Shares his dream with me. Yeah, ups and downs in every relationship, but I'm still here. With him. I just don't want to miss any moment with him.

Old and New Job
Another blow I got was regarding my job. I was ready to give all I have to compensate the time that my office gave me to attend my Mum. Yet, the owner decided to shutdown the office. I was furious not because I became unemployed. I love my job, but I can't do anything about it. I do believe it's temporary. Yes I got another job by the end of November. New experience, I do hope I can gain more experience through this new role of mine. I do miss my old colleagues and hope to meet them again hehehe.

New Friends
This year, I found new friends from Front Row Flag ID (FRFID). I joined this community around March 2014. At first, only silent reader. Lately, I become talkative member. With FRFID, I have courage to go to the club again. Went to Djakarta Warehouse Project 2014 together, not a single fighter anymore. Also, I met my boyfriend in this community. I found new family this year.

New Sisters
I met AVVE, a duo female DJ that just have their debut in 2014. At first, I met them for interview purpose. Later on, it became a sisterhood relationship. I try to watch them perform everywhere. Support them endlessly. They call me Big Sis. They also gave me Christmas presents hehehe. I finally have two little sisters hehehe. On January 2015, we plan to have getaway to IKEA HAHAHA.

New World
Well, I have new world this year. Since I joined FRFID, I have a chance to meet various DJ and interview them. Lots of insights I got from the interview. Opened my mind about EDM world. I try not to be groupies only, but involve more in how to create impact. Totally new world for me and still learn about it. Yeah when I talked with DJ, I also took some pictures with them hehe.

I do experiencing losses, but I also gain lots positive things. For me, 2014 totally hit me with cruel reality. Yet, 2014 also gives me beautiful moments. For good and bad moments, I simply thank God for His blessings. Those moments, teach me to become stronger person. 

I can't wait to see what 2015 will bring to all of us. Let's make 2014 a year to remember and welcome 2015 with new positivity!!!