Who would've thought that I will enter another LDR with my boyfriend? Okay we still lives in same country and same island. Obviously same time zone. However, I can't see him everyday. 

I guess you probably heard this quote:

Last month I turned 30 years old.

Well that's a fact that I can't deny. Yes I'm 30 years no longer in my twenties. In other words, I'm old! Face it, People! 

I often told my friends that I can't wait to turn 30 years. My statement made them surprise. Usually, for women, turning 30 years is a scary thing. Especially for single women, unmarried. I don't blame my fellow women. I blame the society.

For years, society has judge women unfairly, in my opinion. Society determines what women should do. Women should getting married at what age. Have a children at what age. As a women, you must do and that,,, so on and so on.

For me, I'm a rebel type. I have my own reasons why I refused to surrender to those opinions. I also made it clear to everyone in family to don't push me, especially for the marriage part. Although some of my family members still give some hints, I politely respond to them with smile. It doesn't mean I won't get there, just wait and see. Also keep praying ya.

Looking back at my twenties, one of my friend asked this:

Almost two months I haven't write anything here. 

Well not entirely true. I still write but in other place. I become caught up with my other writing so i kinda neglected my blog here and Wordpress. Not to mention I haven't update my trip to Derawan Island in my other blog. Shame on me...

Anyway, some changes is good. Beside, the only thing that constant in this world is change itself, right? I won't say big, but yes, it is affecting me until now. The major change this month is my boyfriend move to his hometown, Semarang. 

Actually he already thought about it since last year. Due to some reasons, he couldn't move yet. After his father passed away, he got the same offering again, and he told me about it. When told me, I answered he should take it. His answered back then, "Who will take care of Rave Colony?"

Even in his tough time he still think about our project.

I told him, he still can manage it from Semarang. When both of us covering an event, I'm the reporter and he's the photographer. The consequence is I have to find another photographer to replace him. Worst case, I will be a photographer with minimum equipment HAHAHA.

Anyway, He went to Semarang on 8/6. He took the offering and got the job. A bit sad but I just want being a supportive person to him. He's been going through a lot of hard times. 

We're talking through WhatsApp everyday. Still bickering to one another. Update about our project. I don't know about him, but I miss him everyday. He never said anything about his feeling, but I don't care. 

In just days, we will welcome 2015. Are you preparing your resolution? I'm not. I don't know, I just don't want make any resolution for 2015. I guess, I came to the conclusion that I don't want make any excessive plans ahead. I do have plans, but not a resolution. I learn a lot from 2014.

Looking back at this year, I have to say 2014 is the tough year for me. I got something but at the same time I also experience great loss. I want to take a moment to look back what 2014 has bring to me so far.

It's December,,, the joyous month off all time. It's end of year and holiday is coming hehehe. A bit different of how I spent December this year. Last 2 years, at this day, I always out of town. Due to several circumstances, I don't go anywhere this year, just stay in Jakarta.

It doesn't mean it's boring. Actually, I'm very grateful to stay in Jakarta on Christmas.

On Christmas Eve 24/12, me and boyfriend came to see our friends, a duo DJ, performed at the club last night. New thing for me. Considering the last 2 Christmases I spent it alone. This year, I spent it with my boyfriend and our friends outside the house.

We had a lot of fun last night. It doesn't mean I have my moment of silence to remember my late Grandma, from my father side of family. Oma Nel.

I don't have her new picture. Last time I met her like 20 years ago. Until her last day, I had no chance to meet her. 

Every Christmas I always feel sentimental like this. I miss her so much. I miss her activities during Christmas preparation. We maybe not worship the same God, but she never failed to give us happiness in every occasion.

Every Christmas, where like everybody caught up in controversy whether Moslem can say Merry Christmas to our Christian friends, I chose no to do that. I choose remember special woman that always have special place in my heart forever...

My one and only Oma Nel...

I always have a habit to listen to music when I'm working. Today is no exception. I have new album called Armada Lounge Volume 6. It's a compilation of downtempo songs that will make you relax. Then I come across this song.

Ola, Blog!!! Ola, September!!!

New month, new spirit. Overall, I'm okay although several events occured. The last one, happened last August 2014.

I'm officially unemployed ^^

Due to certain reasons, I came back to square one. Consider that as a privilege. The last time I'm in this position, I went straight to work without break. Now, I have that privilege. I already booked a trip to Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia. Oh and I'm in a relax mode which mean I won't go sightseeing, just lounging myself at the pool and sipping a glass of drink. Yep, my best idea of sweet escape hehehe.

Will update more with another story. In the meantime, let me enjoy my Monday morning on bed,,, Trust me, it feel so good!!!

On 9/8, I was invited to my cousin's wedding. There were 2 parts. First part, the akad nikah on 8 AM in the morning. Second part, the wedding reception on 7 PM, exactly 11 hours later.

It took me long preparation for this occasion. Why? I always have short hair, so for this occasion I want to make a hair bun. So for 2 months I tried to make my hair longer. The result, good. My hair got longer and possible to made it into hair bun.

For day look, I made spontaneous decision going with blue color. Well since the ceremony was in the morning, so I thought I will go with bright color

For night look, a bit sentimental journey for me. Started 3 years ago, when my Mum first came back, she brought Indian saree for me. At first, I didn't know the right model because the color and patterns really difficult for me to found the match.

After long search, finally I found the model. I consulted with my trusted tailor and she finished it just in time. No time to do fitting, but it turns out well.

I'm totally happy with my look. I didn't realized that I can made this style. The key is CONFIDENT to explore new style and search references all over the place (magazine, internet). Most of all, know what you want to wear.

CHEERS!!!