Can't Get Off

It's been a month since that event. I haven't contacted him, Mr. Bear, since that day, even though he still text me, just to say hi and ask how I'm doing. Never replied it even once, too afraid to do that.

But his latest text made me replied to his message. He said, on 3/12 he will go to Papua for his next placement. Just 2 months. He asked me to accompany him shopping for his supplies. I asked him in which part of Papua. His answer made me shocked. He will go to Timika, to Freeport area. I asked him again was he aware of the latest event regarding Freeport. He said he knew and still he wants to go. So I said okay to accompany him.

Last night we met and shop for his supplies. It's the first time we've met. Kinda miss those time, when we still hang out together. After shopping, we went to dinner. Catch up with each other news. No awkward moment like I imagined before. We talked like old friends.

Last thing, he drop me off in Pancoran. Before he left, he asked me to come to airport, send him off to Papua, and I said yes. Then he asked again, "Can we go back like we used to? As a friend?"

I didn't replied, just look to his eyes. "See you Saturday!" that's all I can say before we departed. But his question still in my head. I want to go back either, but I'm still afraid. So we'll see about it in the next days,,,