Stop and Stare

_Stop and stare
I think I'm moving but I go nowhere
(One Republic – Stop and Stare)

Lately, I felt so much tired. These simptoms, it happened before. Last year, around June 2011, I felt this way. Tired, headache, bored, you name it. Not because I sleep late in the past 2 weeks. But beyond that. The reason why I sleep late because I was busy to find something to overcome my boredom.

Well, my Mum is here, so I should be happy, right? Yeah, I’m happy she’s here. I don’t want to be a bad daughter, but for this situation I need a total seclusion. No family, no friends, just me. I imagine all the time, me sitting in the beach cottage. I’m sitting at the porch, coconut by my side, books in my hand, and wind stroke my hair. Simple, eh???

Instead of beach, I choose cafe. Instead of coconut, I will pick a cup of coffee or a cup of chocolate. Instead of book, I type in my laptop. Instead of wind, air conditioning will accompany me in my solitude time. Yup, no beach, let’s go to the mall where waves of people come and go around me.

On the second thought, maybe I will choose cafe in Senopati. That cafe belongs to my boss’ brother. He recommended me and fellow colleagues to go there when we have time. I think I will give it a try. One thing for sure, I ‘m going to have my solitude time.
Stop for awhile, stare out of the window, find my lost energy,,,