It's been,,, too long since my last update. Lots of events occurred in this past month and I decided to keep all my feelings in separate journal. I will explain it in other occasion.
I dedicated this post to someone,the man I met.
Yes I heard you, my friends. I heard you complaining and ask, "This time, which guy that caught your attention? What makes him different than before?"
I have that reputation about being easily attract to guy, without second thought. My bad and not a good habit. Look at the bright side, I met this man because of this habit. One thing for sure, once I feel connected, you will have all my love (okay me and my over-the-top words). For short, I'm loyal.
I found this guy very comfortable to talk, even when we only sent messages. We continue our communication through chat messenger. Our communication started to be more intense when we decided to have a video call.
First time we had a video call,,, it felt like we instantly connected. What makes him different, I don't know if I can describe it. I just felt he different from other man I once knew. What I like about him? He's funny, very open-minded, focus, very determined, and have a good voice. The last one, I found it through our video call because he's humming and sometimes sing a song. The voice that you usually hear in Bollywood movie, that's the voice I'm talking about.
We kinda beat around the bush in our video call. We both know exactly what we meant with those flirting and codes, but none of us wanted to start first. For me, I'd rather wait him to say it first. After like,,, 2 weeks??? *checking the inbox*
Yep, 2 weeks after our first chat, he finally said 3-words (you know that words hehehe) when we ended our video call. Honestly, speechless a bit but I'm glad because we have mutual feelings. I teased him a bit in email about this, also saying I'm happy. Since that day, I tried my best to send email everyday. Until now, I only miss one day not sending email to him hehehe. Quite a record.
Time difference totally a challenge. He lives in Canada, right now thanks to DST, where have 13 hours difference. That means, if I call him on 10 AM, his time would be 11 PM. Oh don't tell me how hard for us to maintain communication. Yes we send emails, but it feels different if we can talk in video call. We argue few times when I called him in the middle of the night. He worried I don't have enough sleep. Well, both of us worried that each of us don't have enough time to sleep because of the time difference. So far, we can manage it.
I like to see him do activities. Cooking, washing dishes, eating, or pick up the call. I think I do him no justice in this area. While we're having a call, it's always me in the office or in bedroom hehehe.
So who is this guy???
In time you will know. For now, I want to enjoy this feeling ONLY with him. I just not ready to face questions from my family. Yeah they know I have relationship with someone stays abroad, but I never show them his picture. They can be nosy sometimes, especially my aunts :)
Okay, just call him Mr. Calm because despite his cheerful personality in front of me, he is really reserve person in public. Well, I don't know if there's music playing, can he be calm again hehehe.
Anyway, I really love this guy. Always wish him good health and best of luck for his work ^^
So, Mr. Calm. Yes I'm talking to you. If you read this blog (which I'm sure you will), I just wanna say these things. Thank you for all your support throughout my difficult times. Thank you for the laughs you bring. Most of all, your love.
Until then, take care of yourself there ya...