Long distance relationship is an intimate relationship between partners who are geographically isolated from one another.
Who would've thought that I will enter another LDR with my boyfriend? Okay we still lives in same country and same island. Obviously same time zone. However, I can't see him everyday.
I guess you probably heard this quote:
The only thing constant in life is change (Francois de la Rochefoucauld)
Almost two months I haven't write anything here.
Well not entirely true. I still write but in other place. I become caught up with my other writing so i kinda neglected my blog here and Wordpress. Not to mention I haven't update my trip to Derawan Island in my other blog. Shame on me...
Anyway, some changes is good. Beside, the only thing that constant in this world is change itself, right? I won't say big, but yes, it is affecting me until now. The major change this month is my boyfriend move to his hometown, Semarang.
Actually he already thought about it since last year. Due to some reasons, he couldn't move yet. After his father passed away, he got the same offering again, and he told me about it. When told me, I answered he should take it. His answered back then, "Who will take care of Rave Colony?"
Even in his tough time he still think about our project.
I told him, he still can manage it from Semarang. When both of us covering an event, I'm the reporter and he's the photographer. The consequence is I have to find another photographer to replace him. Worst case, I will be a photographer with minimum equipment HAHAHA.
Anyway, He went to Semarang on 8/6. He took the offering and got the job. A bit sad but I just want being a supportive person to him. He's been going through a lot of hard times.
We're talking through WhatsApp everyday. Still bickering to one another. Update about our project. I don't know about him, but I miss him everyday. He never said anything about his feeling, but I don't care.
It's been,,, too long since my last update. Lots of events occurred in this past month and I decided to keep all my feelings in separate journal. I will explain it in other occasion.
I dedicated this post to someone,the man I met.
Yes I heard you, my friends. I heard you complaining and ask, "This time, which guy that caught your attention? What makes him different than before?"
I have that reputation about being easily attract to guy, without second thought. My bad and not a good habit. Look at the bright side, I met this man because of this habit. One thing for sure, once I feel connected, you will have all my love (okay me and my over-the-top words). For short, I'm loyal.
So I stumbled this artist, Yuna. Malaysian artist that have unique voice. She performed her song called " Decorate" and I fell in love instantly. The lyrics totally captivated me. The original song less than 2 minutes. That's why I love her live performance.
Now, this song really fits my feeling. I felt something new with this person. He will go in a long period of time. Should I wait for him??? Maybe. One thing for sure, this song fits my feeling towards him and how I will wait for him.
Dear, this one is for you...
It's been a month since that event. I haven't contacted him, Mr. Bear, since that day, even though he still text me, just to say hi and ask how I'm doing. Never replied it even once, too afraid to do that.
But his latest text made me replied to his message. He said, on 3/12 he will go to Papua for his next placement. Just 2 months. He asked me to accompany him shopping for his supplies. I asked him in which part of Papua. His answer made me shocked. He will go to Timika, to Freeport area. I asked him again was he aware of the latest event regarding Freeport. He said he knew and still he wants to go. So I said okay to accompany him.
Last night we met and shop for his supplies. It's the first time we've met. Kinda miss those time, when we still hang out together. After shopping, we went to dinner. Catch up with each other news. No awkward moment like I imagined before. We talked like old friends.
Last thing, he drop me off in Pancoran. Before he left, he asked me to come to airport, send him off to Papua, and I said yes. Then he asked again, "Can we go back like we used to? As a friend?"
I didn't replied, just look to his eyes. "See you Saturday!" that's all I can say before we departed. But his question still in my head. I want to go back either, but I'm still afraid. So we'll see about it in the next days,,,
The title fits my feeling for the last 3 days,,, Very low spirit. Why?
I just make a decision,,, that I didn't predicted before that it's gonna be this tough to handle. Involved with some guy, yes. Boyfriend, nope. Not reach that level yet.
So I have a boyfriend before, who I called Mr. Frog, about a year ago. Didn't last for long and we broke up. Around November 2010, I met a guy. Just call him, Mr. Bear (gosh I have to get rid of this habit, calling guy with cute animals name). We met through our mutual friends.
Just an ordinary girl that living the extraordinary life with her extraordinary family and friends